My family arrived in Las Vegas this week to start another wonderful chapter of our lives. My beautiful bride and my precious daughter have supported their crazy husband and father through this enormous change to their lives, but I have also watched them both burst into tears with regularity at the thought of leaving our life in Idaho. This has been hard for me because whatever part of my heart that Angela doesn’t own, Katie makes claim to whatever remains.
As I drove ten hours through the Nevada desert to my new home in a hot U-Haul, I certainly had a lot of time to think. I love my wife and five children more than can be expressed and I am grateful to have them with me as we begin a new challenge together. I owe my family a tremendous duty that goes far beyond simply providing financially for them. I owe them my time, my attention and a legacy.
What legacy am I providing for them? When my children are my age, what will they remember of their youth and their father? Will they remember a father that loved their mother, guarded his health and pursued his dreams? Or, will they only remember dropping me off at the airport and kissing them goodbye one too many times?
In one of his roles, Johnny Depp said, “So in the end, was it worth it? How irreparably changed my life has become. It’s always the last day of summer and I’ve been left out in the cold with no door to get back in… Life passes most people by while they’re making grand plans for it. Throughout my lifetime, I’ve left pieces of my heart here and there. And now, there’s almost not enough to stay alive. But I force a smile, knowing that my ambition far exceeded my talent. There are no more white horses or pretty ladies at my door.”
It is days like today that I am strongly reminded that I work to live and not live to work. To the six blonde haired, blue eyed people living in my new Las Vegas address, I promise to not let your life pass me by while I make grand plans for you. I promise to throw more pitches to Parker, watch Katie’s face light up as she dances, listen to Andrew’s big stories, delight in Ethan’s zest for life and soak up the snuggles from my baby Dylan. I am blessed to be in a position to help others achieve their dreams with my job, but no dreams will ever be more important to me than those for whom I really work, my family.